Our lives changed forever. Today I am thinking about many different things:
1. My boy is officially a toddler. Tears come to my eyes when I think about it! His new stages are fun and we are enjoying them.
2. I am remembering the birth experience. For a long, long time after his birth I would try to remember every single detail of how it felt and how it all went down. Almost to the point of obsession. I would ask Paul to describe it in detail. I never, ever wanted to forget the feeling or events. It seemed strange to me because why would your want to remember such a painful experience? Yet I had such a fascination with it. I still don’t exactly know why, but I know that it was not just Eli that was born that day – a mother was born too. I am such a huge advocate of natural childbirth now. I would never want to go through a birth not feel every single part of it – the process is so important. I can’t even tell you why the process is important – it just is – for me.
3. I’m thinking about what I’ve learned this year. Lot’s of things – but most of all patience and acceptance. I expected training a child to be a one step process and I’ve learned to accept Eli’s developmental stages and not be hard on myself when he doesn’t act the way I think he should. I’ve also learned to dismiss other people criticism of my parenting – real or percieved – and be less critical of others. When I take other criticism personally I am more critical of my child. I’ve also learned not to believe everything I hear.
As I write this it is 11:24 am. One year down, 17 more to go…